Days of our life (59)

i know i said i would post tomorrow bs i changed my mind :p
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and we moved on ...

alzain kant tsolf 6oul al6rej kant t5arb6 3an fai9al .. w ana knt aktfi bel estma3 !

until she finally got fed up ...

Alzain: 9aba ga3da tsm3eeni 9a7 ?
Me: ee ee !
Alzain: then shno glt ? 
Me: gltay shay 3an fai9al 

she stared at me ..

Alzain: ana 7mara ashki 7ag wa7da m5adya mthlch !

and she turned up the volume

MU5LL9 KAAN MU5L9 KAN 6YEB MA NSANI LOW NSETA !
A7BA EE A7BA W 7TA GLBA YDRE ENI MA NSEEETA !
BS KEEEL SHAAY RA7 BS KEL SHAY RAA7 BS KEL SHAY RAAA7
RAAA7 5LAA GALBI W RA7 RAA7 5LA GLBI W RAA7
WLA 7AS EB T3B GLBI WLA '3ADAR ABAD 7UBY ANA SHSWET
WISH THANBI BS KFAANII JRAAAA7 !!!

Alzain just stared at the radio and her eyes started to tear up ..


Me: ohhhh nooo alzain plz dont start !!!! wait 3ndi lich '3nya!

i screemed so hard with my ' nshaz ' voice

Me: yaaaaa 3aasaaaaal entyyy malch ay 7aaal bosa mnch bas tsabebly shalal !

alzain laughed so hard ! we always sing that song if we wanted to laugh! 7adha 3gedya but we like it !she completed the song with me

Alzain: enty ufffffffffff !! enty malch ay wi9oooof garbi mni 5al ashouf !! ya 3asal

and we sang until we reached ba7r bnaider

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lma wi9alna we opened the trunk w 6ala3na blancket w firashna 3al trab and layed their counting the stars in the sky .. even though i was wearing my hemline skirt with my 3 inches wedge! and alzain was wearing her short marc jacobs dress with her 3 inches heel! but we didnt care! we needed this time  ...

Alzain: tathkren ayam kna nikrah ba3a'6?
Me: uffff knt ma awa6nch moliya !
Alzain: kntay 7aywana walla ! thaz2een elwa7d bslobch m3na ma tsben :)
Me: Eeee sh3baaalch ! =))
Alzain: chab
Me: bs lsanch kan 6weel
Alzain: adre w lel7en =))

we just sat there chatting and gazing at the stars remembering our old days together

Alzain: tathkren ayam alya5or ?
Me: uuufff 2 weeks swena fehm blawi =))
Alzain: tathkren eli ksrna light syarta !
Me: EEEEEEEEEE lmn yaw aljm3ya w en5shetay wra fai9al !

Alzain froze once she heard his name .. i saw a tear forming in her eyes!
goooosh im just so stupid ! laish ybt 6are fai9al !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: zayon makan 89di !
Alzain: its ok dont worry
Me: you still love him dont you ?
Alzain: moooooooore then you could ever imagine .. Kilmat i love him ma tkafi bs maynfa3 kilhatha 
Me: lesh fagda el2amal zyoon ?! entay ma 7awaltay w nhetay klshay!
Alzain: 9ABA OHWA 3DEM E7SAS ? A7S MAKNT A3NEELA SHAY B7YATA ! A7S KAN YBE YL3AB ! LAISH 3LGNI CHTHY W ANA YA 9ABA ? TATHKREN LMN RDET ALKEL 3SHANAH ! TATHKREN ENA MAKNT ABY AKLMA W OHWA KLMNI '39B EB AVEN ! ANA MAGTLAH 7BNI '39B ! OHWA 7BNI MIN KAIFAH W ANA BADLTAH ALSH3OUR W 7BETAH ! A5RT,HA CHTHY YSWE FENI ? YTZWJ BNT 3MA BS 3SHAN MAYGDR YKLM OBOUH ? LEHDRJA MALY GDR 3NDAH ? HAL 7UB KILA 6OUL HAL 6 SNEEN SHNO KAN ?? FAI9AL MAKAN YNAM ELA W EHWA MKLMNI !! SHLOUN FAJ2A BT3AD 3ANI ! ya3ni bs'hola 5lani 9aba and i cant do anything about it lil2saf 


she bent her head and cried !

Me: zayoon klhm chthy .. bel awl yhtmon w 3gbha yro7on !
Alzain: bs fe farg !
Me: maaakuu faaarg ! ka bader eli 7beta w eli 3mri ma '9retah eb shay ohwa '9rni ! ohwa athani ! w fog hatha shftay shswa msa3 ! la w bytzwaj mnu ? ENASANA AKRHA ! y3ne shtben ykon shu3ori ! bs ka at7mal l2na allah ktb lkel wa7id na9eb ! w mangdr ngol shay 7ag ktbt allah ya alzain ! shdrach ymkn eli 5a6bch ykon a7sn mnah eb wayd ! shdrach enty ymkn t7ben eli 5a6bch ! el7ub min allah ! yalla zayon get over it ur strong walla !


she smiled

Alzain: and thats why i choose to move on and get married ! 
Me: ta3jbeeni walla  
Alzain: 9booy lal7een 7a6a elspeakers mal elipod blsyara mn hathak elyoum ?
Me: ee mawjooden bldaba shofeehom


she went to get them and i stayed laying down ..

something beneath me was vibrating

i stretched to find it it was my phone

calling..
Zayed ..

uuuuuh ohhhhhhh !!! -.-

Alzain: kahom !

i signaled ena chub !

Me: aloo
Zayed: ha 7yaty wench ?
Me: ana ?

it looked like he was busy with something next to him .. cuz he was talking to a guy about some '3itraa

Me: 7yatyy
Zayed: hlaa kani wait *talking to another guy: ee abi wa7da be'6a ! kaak bo 3lewy kil tbn
Me: zayeeeeeed !!!!
Zayed: haaaa hlaaa
Me: dag 3lay 3shan tkalm ely yamik
Zayed: shsawi minsha'3leen b5i6bat f9ail bacher w 9ayra loya ! wench entay ?


soooo bacher ray7 ya6lb eedha rasmii .. the day that zyooon has her engagment too ... shhal 9idaf !

Me: umm ana ?!
Zayed: eee 

If i told him i was in bnaider i would be killed !

Me: bl zwara lal7een!
Zayed: ma 6ala3taw
Me: la2
Zayed: *talking to the guys* kani kani yay ! yalla 7yaty a5al9 w adg 3lech 
Me: okk
Zayed: bye my lovely love 
Me giggling: bye zayed


Alzain: sh9aaar?
Me: ma9ar shay!
Alzain: sh3inda hindi dag ?
Me: dag ys2al 7raam
Alzain: y7lela walla ys2al 3an mairry tbarak elr7man 
Me: enthabray enthbray ! 


the rest of our day was spent like this .. laughing and listening to songs until we officially went back home .. i slept at zyoons that day since she was dead scared for her big day tomorrow !!

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** Alzain's point of view **


i woke up extra early that day .. i didnt sleep alnight because i was freakin scared!!! i woke up at 6 and headed to the kitchen ..

i grabbed a glass of milk and sat on the counter and started drinking !! i plugged in some head phones and started listening to a7mad alharmi's song .. #9a3ba

9a3ba 3laya forgitak 9a3ba ... 9a3ba wana ely mi7trg galba .. mlet mn 6oul elhajer yil3an abo el'3orba .. 
rdli ya galbi rdli !!!! 5alni ashm ree7at hali .. maya3rf el7ub lawili ela elthy mjarba !! 
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lahfa 3lek rwee7ti lahfa .. 3eni bee9eera w eedi mitkatfa .. as2al 3lek ely a3rfa w 7ta elthi ma3rfa .. 
na6er yjeeni lo 5abar .. na6r w kil leli sahar ! lifrag mawatni 8ahar w glebi em3athba ..


i listened to it then shut it off .. i dont want to cry today .. but i miss him .. i really miss FAI9AL !! i want him !! i really want him !! i need him today !! SOMEBODY PLZ BRING HIM TO ME !!  Today im going to be somebody elsses belonging ! somebody other then fai9al ..

i just wanted to hear his voice ! one last time atleast !

i dialed his number and waited !

Fai9al with a sleepy voice: alooo ?
Me: ... 
Fai9al: alooo 
Me: ...
Fai9al: alooo zyoona ??

i shut the line amediately  and started to cry !! i cried hardly !! goosh his voice really kills me ! He still has my number saved on his phone ??!! he still calls me zyoona ! ya3ni he didnt forget me !!!! I need him walla ! i want him today ! i want him to be here for me ! i want him to be the one proposing today not some other guy that i dont even know the name of ! i want him to be the one !! I LOVE FAI9AL AND I REALLY NEED HIM! cant he be the one proposing today ??

I sent him a message :

this was the last time i hear your voice .. and this may be the last message! i wish you the very best with your fiance! but keep in mind .. your place in my heart is saved forever and always

Yours sincerley,
        Alzain.

i sent it without even reading it! i sat there for the next hour drawning in my tears ..
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it was 5 pm and i was sitting in-front of my mirror with my teary eyes that have been covered with some eye liner and mascara! they were doing my hair and i was just staring in the mirror drawing my feature .. imagining it with somebody besides fai9al ..

9aba: yalla zyoon gomay badlay tara ohma shwya w yo9lon!

i did as i was told without saying a word .. i actually didnt feel like saying anything .. i just wanted to get this night over with ..

i changed into my ASOS white dress:

and my gold glitter christiano Loubitoun:

My light brown wavy hair reached half of my back which covered some of my revealing back .. i put on some red lipstick and wore my cartier braclets with my rolex watch whhich were brought up to my room as gifts from my mother and dad. I love them ! omy 6oul elyoum tzaheb a tigra 3lay w oboy ma5la hdya ela w yabli eyaha! w 5wani klwa7d ydsh y7awl y'6a7kni .. w 9aba ma 5alatni mn ams .. bs i wish its was that easy .. this time i couldent fake any smiles .. i was torn!


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i finished and sat there waiting for 9aba to come and tell me its time to go down .. i sat there waiting and not 1 second did fai9al get off my mind .. i kept thinking of him and thinking of him ..

until the door opened ..


9aba: yalla zyoon


a tear escaped my eye ..


Alzain: yalla 


i headed down stairs and by every step i took i was getting closer to who may be my husband .. every single step i took i wanted to take 10 back ! it was like forcing my legs to walk ! my brain to stop the thinking ! and my heart to forget fai9al ! i wanted to run back to my room and dial his number and shout I MAY NEVER BE TO ANYONE BUT YOU !!! i wanted to shout YOU AND I WERE MEANT TO BE !! i wanted to hear his sharp voice one last time .. i wanted to hugg him goodbye ! i wanted to tell him i love him for the last time! i wanted to kiss his soft cheecks for one more time .. i just want to do everything on last time !! but it was to late .. i was already standing behind the wall of the living room ..

9aba: dshay !!
Alzain: 9aba 5ayfa!! 
9aba: lat5afeen zyoon .. ta3wthay mn blees w dshay  

and i went inside ..

as faced a major shock

as i saw him standing infront of me ..

i ran as fast as these heels could !!!!

i hugged him tightly and cried on his shoulders .. as he hugged me back painfuly !!!!
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Fai9al: and now you know i can never let you go <3


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FEEEEEEEDBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKS!