SO SORRY FOR THE DELAY GUYS !! WALLA LOTS AND LOTS OF STUFF TO DO BEFORE THE END OF THE YEAR :( SORRY ;** now enjoy!
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i just got really pissed off and walked back to where the others were sitting .. thinking sharag3 7ag nafsi jdam zayed .. hes pissed off w 7tan maydri shsalfa.
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i just walked and Bader was behind me .. i was feeling his cold angry stares .. hal ayam ga3da a3amla mo3amla 5aysa bs ystahal .. mahma aswi feeh mara7 o9al thra mn ely kan ysweeh feeni .. w 7ta law 3amlta mo3amla mo zaina .. LIKE HE DOSENT EVEN CARE .. thats bader ... never cares :)
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i walked until i reached them
Me: ana ray7a anam ..
M7mad: haww 9bew tnam hal 7za '3reeba ..
i faked a smile ..
Me: hhh daay5a walla
M7md: 5la9 bra7tch .. bs 3ad mo tsha5reen !
They all giggled ..
Me: lesh galolk M7amad ?
M7amad: la adri ena 9aba !
Me laughing: 78eeeer
M7amad: yalla ro7ay namay ..
Me: ti9b7oon 3la 5er
All: w entay mn ahla ;*
as soon as i went inside .. tears started dropping out of my eyes rapidly .. i ran upstairs ! jumped on the bed and started crying !! crying like a baby .. crying because everything and everyone attacks me with no good reason .. with misunderstanding .. i have no fault in all of this .. I'm the one that's broken here ! I'm the one who's hurt ! I'm the on that needs a break from this life .. that's just what i wanted ..
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i cried and cried and cried ... It took me so long trying to forget Bader and im really trying my best .. now Zayed who promised me he'll be with me in all of this and never let go .. who prmoised me he would never ever believe or even think that something will ever be between me and bader .. ga3d yshik feeni .. ga3d y3a9b 3lay ! ga3d ya'6lmni ! enzain ana shko ? shthamby ana !! wa3dta mara7 asawi shay w wa3dni mara7 yshik feeni ..
i dont know whats wrong with this boy walla ..
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it took me minutes thinking and thinking .. i decided to call him ..
calling ...
no answer
calling ...
no answer
calling ...
no answer
Me: di3la !
minutes later my phone vibrated ..
Zayed is calling ..
Me: alo ?
Zayed: ...
Me: zayed ?
the phone call ended .. shfe omaaaa ? ;@
i called him
once
twice
three times
four times
five six seven eight nine and ten times .. there was just no answer ..
i tried to call him one last time ..
until he finally picked up ..
Zayed: 5er ?
Me: aloo
Zayed: na3am ?
Me: shfeek chithi titklam ?
Zayed: mo 3ajbch ?
Me: akeed la2 !
Zayed: ma7ad jbirch tklmeeni :)
Me: zayed yneeeet ?
Zayed: sta5fet !
Me: wa'67 7eel :) momkn tshra7li mn shno ? shswet ana ely ga3da t3amlni chithi ?
Zayed: walla entay adra aw ro7ay 7ag Bader 7beeb galbch yshra7lch .. ymkn shar7a a7san mni ;D
Me: Zayed yneeet 9a7 ?!!!!!
Zayed: EE YNET !!! LANI ANA MO 7MAR YA 9ABA TG9EEN 3LAY BCHAM KILMA !! TGOLEEN BNSAWI BBQ WYA ELBNAT A5R SHAY ASHOFCH GA3DA WYA KOMAT SHBAB !!! BA3RF ANA MA TST7EEN ??? SHLOUN TISM7EEN 7AG NAFSCH TG3DEEN WYA SHBAB ??? LA W YRET WA7D WLA ATHNEN !! 7 !!! 7 9ABA T3RFEEN SHNO YA3NI 7 !!! W FOG HATHA WAGFA TSHAWEEN W TI'67KEEN WYA WA7D MNHOM !! MAFE 7YA !! W ADG 3LECH MATRDEEEN !! W LAY RDETAY 3LAY AAKLMCH TA7GREEN W TG3DEEN TSOLFEEN WYA HAL 5RA BADER ELY LA7GCH LAY BARA !!! 3LA 2SAS MA T7BEENA ! 3LA 2SAS GA3DA T7AWLEEN TINSENA !!! WA;67 9ABA .. 7EL WA'67 !!! ANA AGOUL RO7AY KAMLAY SWALFCH WYA .. MO EHWA 7BEEB ELGALB .. ALLA YWAFGKOM!
his shouting killed me .. it scared me .. it made me cry even more .. and what made me feel worse ? was his non-sense words ..
Me: tadri ena kint adri byee youm w tgouli hal klam .. knt adri enk mara7 t9adgni w ra7 tit'hmni eni aklm Bader .. w wagftk wyay hathi kilha mara7 idom :') ? bs abeek t3arf shay wa7dzayed .. only one fuc*** thing .. lo maknt abi bader w maknt abi ansah .. chan mafakrt eni a7bk bl2sas aw 7ta sima7tlk tkon b7yaty .. :')
and by that .. i pressed the red button and i ended up crying my painful heart out ..
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next post after an hour or less ;*
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