Days of our life (58)

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And i left alzain's home ..


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 over a week past and it was the day of the zwara.. it was a regular week at university regular classes typical Dr.Fawzi w hwasha wya alzain and random alzain .. she was normal bs kan mbayn 3leha mit'6ayga .. ashoufha sar7ana w tfaker w sa3at tanzl dam3a mn 3enha la sh3oryan w kil ma sa2alt'ha shfeech galat wla shay. Alzain is a strong girl w ra7 tit3ada kil hatha enshalla..


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it was a new day with a new morning ...
i headed to take a shower and then wore my clothes:

ruffled white top  :

and my red high-low hemline skirt:

with my black christiano loubiton heels:

and my black balenciaga bag:

i called alzain...
Alzain with a sleepy voice:  ha ?
Me: w wy3aaah ! la tgolen twch ga3da min alnom !
Alzain: twni ga3da min alnom !
Me: agol fzi e5thy shower w lbsy l2na ra7 adsh lzwara m3ach ! mara7 an6rch hnak 3ad mama bdrya mswya 5osh mchbos !
Alzain: 5 minuted and i will be ready !
Me: alsalfa feha mchbos :)
Alzain: EEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
Me: yalla yalla 5l9ay w dgy
Alzain: ok

i closed the line and decided to call zayed since alzain tawha tgoum ..

so i called zayed

Zayed: halla bhaal zain kila
Me: zayed ra7 aro7 lzwara today :)
Zayed: zain tsaween w ma 3leh 7yaty mhma kan ohma ahlch ! ana fahmch walla bs mayswa tg63en eb 9lt alr7m
3shanah !
Me: mu 3shan a7d ana t3wdt a9lan wla etha 3la bader magmt a76lah ay e3tbar !
Zayed: i know 7bebty w lazm trou7in zwara wlaw hathol ahlch.. ma abi a'68a6 3lech wenty twch fa ana agol low trou7in zwara w trk wayd afthal !
Me: ok zyod i will think about it ! now bro7 amr alzain tby shay ?
Zayed: la slamtch dery balch 3la nfsch
Me: enshalla m3a alslama
Zayed: m3a alslama ..

his words chilled me a bit .. talking to him makes me relax!

i sat and watched tv for about 15 minutes then headed to pick up zyoon
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when i arrived  after 30 mintue she came down

Me: hathy al,5 min ?
Alzain: shswe 9bouy 3la ma 6ala3t hdom !
Me: mashi mashi =))

we kept silent until we arrived to mama bdrya's house ... the place that remembered  me about everything that had to do with bader .. the place that i went to every single week to just look at bader! but now ? there is nothing

Alzian: mu nawia tnzlen ?
Me: embla ..

i got out the car .. suddenly my eyes just noticed the place of the fight ..
5 years and nothing changed .. its like i can still see my crashed phone on the ground and bader shouting in-front of me .. its like i was having millions of flashbacks!
i closed my eyes tightly and tried to forget everything !!

Alzain: 9aba fich shy ?
Me: la shku bs ashof bet mama bdrya .. 5 snen ma t'3yer feh shay !
Alzain: agoull 3balch b6wf mchbos 3shan walla 9aba btshof bet mama badriya ?
Me: yalla yalla emshy la tbchen 3lena !

we got inside ..

 i ran as fast as i coulld in my heels to mama bdrya and hugged her.. long time no see ...

she chatted with me and all my aunts and family did too. Millions of topics were talked about and thousands of "miss you"'s were told .. to me and to zyoon .. i really missed them too i just felt like going and hugging every single one of them .. their the best family ever and i never meant to leave them .. i just had too

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after talking we had lunch ... and after that we sat for dessert and chatted some more


F6om: mama bdrya bdlty kilsh mu 7lwa 7ag alparty :(
Mama bdrya: la yma mnu ga9 3lech .. walla sh7lat,ha ...
Me: klshay 3lech 7loo f6eem dont worry! ya kalba ta'3yrtay wayed bhal 5 years! jad miss you
F6om: chub 7aywana ma akalmch .. 7ta talefon mafe! 5tfetay bdon sibab! 
Me: shsawi ba3ad .. lo oboch y5aleech t6l3een chan 6ala3t wyach walla :( 

But suddenly a girl entered ..

HEY I KNOW THAT FACE !!  bshayer ??
ohh god plz no !!!!
yeah it was Bashayer!! she entered with her goffy smile and her stupid accent!
 ughhhh ya rabi lesh !!! wai3 akrah hal adimya

Alzain: oooh 9aba laish ma tshwben chay ?
Me: LAA3T CHBDI MIN SHFT WAYHCH !
Alzain: why do u hate me that much :(
Me: L2222NCH TLW3EEEN ALCHAABD AND 9AAAAIDAAH !

ljoon and rtooj who sat on the corner were ROTFL! and f6ooom was with them! they all knew how much i hated the bitch !w 3ad zyoon 3ad lay 78idat 3la a7ad =)) ma t5ali a7ad b7ala .. 5a9atan bshayer! kilina ma nwa6inha! g3dat tg6 na'3zat lay elsima w kilina n'67ak!

oo bshayr libgara just stayed and stared at us  ..
as if we're gonna stop this shit =))

Bshayr : mama bdrya 3sa m7d lel7in mashwa (ma shara) 7g al7fla ?

Me whispering to alzain: 3la ay asas tnadeha mama bdrya ?
Alzain: 3la 2sas 8a9b bda5el nafs'ha ben el3a3yla ! =))

and we started laughing again ! .. kil ely kan eb eed bshater enha t5z eb 6araf 3e3n .. she'd a baby w ma3ndha sha59ya ..

Mama bdrya: la matwa8a3 .. alkel mjhz w 5ali9 ..

Me: mama bdrya 7flt shnou ?
Mama bdrya: we ya 7af'9 7flt mlcht bader w bshayr omch magaltlch ? shd3wa w entw eb bait........

WHAT ????????? MILCHAT BADER W BASHAYER !!! MN MTA ;@

its like someone slaped my face .. i was too shooked ... why did no one tell me about this .. laish ana a5er man y3lam ! LAISH BSHAYR W BADER ! ohwa may7bha wla ywa6nha  a3rfah :) Their noy meant to be !! mo laygeen 7ag ba3a'6

i was deeply shocked !! Bader came in at that time but froze when he saw me!

ohh great hatha ely nag9

he stared at me and its like he saw something he never expected to see .. its like he never saw me since 5 years and i suddenly apperead ..


Bader: 9ABA ???


all i could do was stand there .. i just stared deeply in his eyes .. i felt like saying a bunch of words .. w
LOTS AND LOTS was in my mind ..

Me: ee 9aba 

i saw a huge smile forming on his face .. but i stood there still staring at him .. i felt that im standing infront of the cheapest thing in the world .. la3at chabdi ! yletni ma shfta .. 7seta ensan r5ee9 wagf jdami .. 7set wdi atafl 3leh w amshi lana hatha mostwah !! klaaaaaaaaam bda5li wdi agoula w knt 5ashta 6oul hal 5 years bs madri shloun ! elshay elwa7eed ely kan beedi eni a5za w a7sisa blmostwa ely ehwa feeh! i stared deeply in his sparkling eyes .. his never knew what i went through in this 5 years !! nobody know .. he thinks that i was just sad .. but he didnt know i was suffering !! he didnt know that his words killed me for 3 whole months!

Bshayer: ohh 7beebi yet 

she went to kiss him but he was still staring at me ! i mean deeply staring into my eyes! he didnt move an inch! he  just stood there and stared .. bshayer was staring at us .. i felt her angryness  kan bwdha tsawi shay bs mo 3arfa ..

Bshayer: hatha zoji elmosta8bli 9aba ;D isnt he cute ..


i moved my eyes away and looked at her .. avoiding any i contact with him .. putting in mind " 5LA9 9ABA YOU'VE GOT OVER HIM A LONG TIME AGO .. LAT5RBEEN KLSHAY YOU HAVE ZAYED NOW AND THATS WHATS IMPORTANT" ..


Me: oohh mbrooook .. yeah alla yhneekom 
Bshayer: alla ybark feech .. 3ad we will make a great couple wla shraych ?
Me: yeah you will .. but goodluck with that 

she was staring and me mn fog lay ta7at chni mo 3ajbat'ha .. Alzain felt my dis-comfort

Alzain : 9aaabaaa ta3aalii abiich eb mwtho3 !


as i was about to talk ..


Bshayer: la haww 5leeha .. let her stare at something 3jizat to9ala ;D


EXUSE ME ?????????  3la ay 2sas yaya tgouli hal klam !!! mno ehya !!

i couldnt move my body ! i couldnt even look to alzain's face !
i swear to god every muscle in my body told me punch her face !!
ensana wa6ya !!!! w 78eera !!!!!

my eyes were getting filled with tears but i resisted !! i will never let them fall infront of them ! not once do i want bader to feel that i still love him ! abi y3arf that i got over his love a long time ago ! and hes dosent mean anything to me right now ..


Me: ma 3ijazt o9ala 7beebti .. m3a layam i realizied how cheap he was so i just left him for you .. i loved him yeah ok .. but now he's nothing blnisba 7agi .. NOTHING and underline that word three times .. i spent 5 years forgetting him and guess what ? i did !! i really did ;D and 9aba deserves a better guy ..




Then i grabbed alzain and headed out with her .. but before i did


Bader furiously: 9ABA ;@!!!!!!!!!!
Me: yes bader ? 
Bader: entay shfeech !!! lesh lsanch 6ayel zyada 3an el'lizom !!
Me: la 7beebi mo 6ayel .. bs ti3alamt a36i elkil 3la gad 7ajma w 3la gad ele7tram ely ystahla .. and i gave you yours ..
Bader: w afham mn klamch ?? ya3ni im nothing in your life now 9a7 ?
Me: yeah your nothing and never will be .. 5la9 bader zman 7ubk ra7 w 5lani! ana nseta w ehwa nsani .. now go 56eebtk tan6rk .. 


AND I gave them my back to go outside ..

as soon as i got out i started to cry !! Alzain hugged me !

Alzain: waaaay 9abooy bs la tabcheen !! la ita3been nafsch ya3ni blthma makntay 7a6a e3tbar ena hal shay be9eer ?
Me: embla 7a6a 3tbar zyoon *sniif* bs en8imat mnhom! 8thooni 7eel
Alzain: w lesh 8thooch 9abooy ? 5la9 entay mo karhteeh ? mo magam y3neelch shay b7yatch ? 5leeh ywali ! bil3na ! you have zayed ely yswa 10 mn ashkal bader 

i moved back and whipped my tears ..

 Me: your right :') 


She was right ! before i got to mama badriya's house knt 3arfa eni bshouf wayed nas ma7b ashoufha .. knt darya eni bashouf bader .. w knt adri eni ra7 at'thkar klshay 9arli !!!! ra7 yrja3li klshay mret feeh .. w ra7 t9eerli ashya2 mara7 arta7lha ! bs en8thet w t'ayagt lma ktshf bnafsi ena bader w bshayer MA56OBEEN !!!! kilish ma 6arat 3la bali b7yaty !!! bs you know what ? klam alzain 9a7 ! and i feel happy for them .. laygeen 3la ba3a'6 .. their both cheap ;D! and i dont have any feelings for bader now ya3ni ma hamni klsh !!


Me: enzain emshay enro7 ba7ar bnaider ?
Alzain: yneetay ! its 6!
Me: 3la ma no9al 7 w shno ya3ni walla i need to smell some fresh air! ba7arhom yray7 !
Alzain: t9adgeen 7ta ana .. yalla foga .. i need to get a break gabl bacher .. my life will change 180 daraja!
Me: yalla emshay!


we went to my car and drove off to relax a bit in ba7ar bnaider ..
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a7s this post 7dha mla6b6a i wrote it w ana mit5arb6a fa ma 3leh ..