It was just a mistake (11)

The car ride back home was silent, no one spoke or even had questions to ask like i expected..  Not a single what happened? Are you ok? or a high toned "why were you outside alone at night?, why didnt you listen to what we said" yell.. nothing.

Rakan was silently driving the car and 3bdallah gazed out the window of the passengers seat.. while i sat in the back counting the endless aches i had on my arms and body. This was one of the toughest most dramatic nights of my life.

Was it because i called her the other day? but she hated me. i backed off.

Was she the person responsible for the threatening text message i received? yeah.. it must be her, it is her.

The car ride back home was very silent, full-filled with unreachable answers and unspoken questions and clarifications.

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"Gomay wi9alna"-he shock me, i opened my eyes too notice that i drifted to sleep without noticing. I gave him a questioning look hoping that he might blurt something out, but he gave me a cold look away and got inside. I hooped out of the car and glimpsed abdullah walking away to the shore. The sun was highly shined out in the sky, resembling that it was just 1 or 2 in the afternoon.

I felt so tired, and so drained. I really needed some sleep and wondered if the girls were still sleeping or out for a swim. I also wondered if they knew about what happened last night or not.

Whats happening to me right now feels so fictional, im tired, im lost, i have no clue on who to talk too, who to explain too, and if someone wants to hear anything anymore. I dont know whether im wrong or right, guilty or innocent.

I stood there, sobbed in my dirty clothes, and teary eyes, gazing at 3bdallah walking away, until he was out of sight. And that's when i realized that its yet, not the time to discover the true story of theirs. I gathered myself up and headed up to our room.

with no room for second thoughts in my mind anymore, i showered, changed into my pj's and slept the craziest night of my life away..

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i woke up to the sound of her sobs as much as i woke up from the pain of the bruises that surrounded me. "Sara, are you okay?", as if she didnt want anyone to find out, she pretended as if she didn't hear what i just said, and started to clear her teary face standing out the balcony.

It was too cold, winters about to start and the breezes were very shivery at night, grabbing a small blanket on the corner of my bed i got up and headed to cover her exposed skin.

Sara was in the room all alone, having a hard time, supposingly aomething might be going on.  And with all the sadness in the world contained in her eyes, she spoke "Trust me, im fine."i know you are, Sara's never sad about anything lana ely a7ba feeha tadri ena ma7ad kafu tiz3al 3leh"- i said hugging her "9a7, sa3at.. lma tkoneen z3lana 3la sha59 bs sa3at elwa7d yz3al mn ashya2 t9eer by7ata w ehwa mo fahmha, just like me now, fa ath6ar eni az3al" "7ta w entay tadreen ena kilshay y9eer 8'6a2 rabi w 8adra? w ena labod feeh 5air lich aw 3laich? "  "Ay 5air ghala, w ana kil mag3adt bro7i athkar someones bloody past, w lil2saf elsha59 ykon 7ail '3ali 3lay bs ath6ar akraha aw tlo3 chabdi" "Yousef?"-i said, knowing exactly who she meant but wanting to hear it from her. "lil2saf, its been along time but nobody full-filled my interests like he did"-she spoke, her words were rather interesting. So refreshing to listen to such beloved words. True words being spoken, from a person who's in its first stages of love. I loved the sound of such phrases i fail to the know the feelings too..

"He opened up  to me ghala and told me everything about him, 9ij ena its not that disturbing, its how any teenage guy of his age would act but it disturbed me to know that he was once a player, a7sa, a7sa besawi feeni mthl maswa bkil ely fataw 3leh. Ely bda5li ana, i know it's true but him? im not so sure.." "Getting second thoughts about this whole subject, ma alomch.. but you do need to realize that nobody opens up to you in a completely honest way, w 3an zaina w shaina, ela ely yath8 feech w 3azch w 3adich shay eb 7yata.. w never judge a person who opens up to you bhal 6ree8a. Never judge a person's past because some really do change"-Ghala spoke wisely. Loads did she conclude from reading and thinking, wise was her mind when she helped people. But too childish were her actions when she was in similar situations.

Ghala's words made Sara realize that she needs to give na9er a chance, and he may be either a lesson to learn from, or a lifetime gift. But when your heart tells you to do something, go right ahead and do it. No matter what the consequences are, never regret it. Because the risks you take are never worthless.

"enshallah"-she smiled to ghala, "Ela elbaji wainhom?"-i said questionably, "They told me bero7on 3nd wa7da bs nsait shsmha, w 6l3aw mn el9b7 lail7een ma radaw" "khair enshallah, yallah anaa nazla akli shay yo3ana"-ghala said her last words to sara as she left the room, but before she did sara awkwardly grabbed her into a tight hug, thanking her for always being there for her. "aa5"-ghala ached as sara accidentally hit a bruise, "Shfeech??"-sara wondered, ghala cursed herself, trying to hide her bruises with her long sleeves, "Wla shay, it must be a bruise w ana nayma" "5ara3teeni, 6oul 3umrich dafsha blnoma 5o"

ghala giggled.. and headed to get her something to eat.. she was starving.

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As her bare footed toes made her way down the stairs, it was completely dark, seemed like only she and sara were in the chalet alone. W allah y3lam wain lamar w ghezlan lay el7een

"I just hope they're fine"-she thought. And yeah you can see that she's starting to think like a freak, ta38idat.

As she opened the fridge she saw a tank of ben&jeryy's, HEAVEN'S CALLING.. Her eyes widened, "even if i ate nothing at all, hatha be3aw'6ni 6ab3an"- she said, like a child

She sat there for over 30 minutes, satisfyying her belly with some icecream, hearing voices outside.. she decided to go check them out.

& turns out to be the boys just goofing around.

there she saw na9er, a7mad and yousef fighting and laughing their stomaches off, but once they saw her they stopped to say hello.. Behind them was rakan in his car punching on his mobile.. He seemed biter, and very depressed. 

"Is this a good time to go talk to him?"-she thinks, just about to make a step and head twoards his car.

But "Ghala"-3bdallah calls from behind her. "Ambay 5ara3tni"-she expresses her shock "Amer?" "Mayamer 3laich 3ado.. Umm, matbeni awdech elmostaw9f shay? Shloun 97itch?"-he nervously spoke, not knowing about where to start and how to hide her pain away she lowered her head "mafeeni ela el3afya", "akeed? Enzain matben enro7 nit6aman? Bs fo7o9at saree3a?"-he presuaded, "lat7ati, ma9ar ela el3afya w el7imdlah mafeeni shay"-her words started to turn into frustrations.. "Dont ask about my health if you dont want to bother explaining why all this tragedy happened to me! Dont act like you care cuz to me you seem that you dont"-she felt like exploding..

Pretending like she didnt have millions of things going on inside of her b7ijat "ent'6ar elwagt elmonasib" kanat t3a9bha..

He flashed her a smile and turned to walk away, only interuppting him with her shaky voice "isnt it time yet? tell me, im confused.."- she couldent wait any longer. "Tell you what ghala?"-He said exhaustedly, "you know exactly what i want to know, 3arf laish '6ay3a w ely mtayhni", "amray bs bli taben t3arfena?" "Abi a3rf reem, mno ehya sh3rfha feeni, shkraha feeni w sh89at ely 9ar lailat ams?"  

And thats when the conversations began, and it all hit me..

The convo was too large, we sat by the shore, and 3bdallah began explaining everything. Clarifyying that he never wanted to leave me clueless, wondering, or getting hurt, And not a detail passed by, that i managed not to clearly analyze.

"Ert7tay el7een?" "Bs laish ana? Why couldent he use lamar to get him to get rid of reem, wla ay wa7da thanya, why is it always ghala yakhi yadri ma abla3a ysawi feeni hal 7arka ba3ad?"-I said, deeply touched by the subject.

3bdallah laughed "elmohm el7een tadren ena mara thanya lma agoulch shay 6ee3eeni w malich sh'3l brkano, w ena reem swat chithi mojarad enha darat entay 7bebat rakan, fa latgrbeen 9oba 3shan titjnbain mshakilha ely malha nehaya." "9aj 9aj.. Bs ashwa 5tarni ana wla chan mat7malt ashouf wa7da mn 5awati tit2tha!", he giggled on my facial expressions, "ya 7wich ya ghala." I smiled, "thankyou 3bdallah."

Minutes of akward silence went between us.. He just stared at me awkwardly, and i pretended to stare at the sand..

"Tara lamar w ghezlan 3nd shaikha e5ti 3la fkra, ejtm3aw 3igob g6a3a 6weela wa25eeran"-he broke tge silence, "shaikha e5tk lkbera ma '3airha?"-i said surprised. Ambay.. Mn zman 3anha! Kbt a7bha! Wlw enha kanat akbar mina kanat wayed 7booba, "eeh shaikha ely rabatni w kabratni bhal dinya mn ba3ad wafat omy allah yr7amha"..

He seemed so sad, kisar 5a6ri.. Trying to change the subject ghala smacked 3bdallah really hard and got up to run, "HAW FAJ2AA?"- he laughed, "CATCH ME IF YOU CAN"- i shouted from afar, and i never stopped running knoeing ena marda be9eedni bthwani! 

I started running and running looking at him getting closer and closer, "laish tltaftain ashoufch 5ayfaa??"- he smirked "Ma3ozik bs ashoufk wain wi9alt!"

"watch where you two are going, shhal mayhala??"- I bumped into a tall figure, "AYY"-i ached, there was the huge scar, or huge bruise on my arm that pained so much, i lifted my sleeve to look at it. It was giant.. "Ghala mo china gltay mafeech shay??"-3bdallah came close to take a look at it "Ana ray7 anam, atmna mara thanya tshofeen wain ray7a"-he said walking in, whats wrong with him? shswaitla ba3ad?

"Ghala t3alay enro.." "Its fine 3bdalah, wallah, its fine. I need to go rest 3an ethnk"-She shut him down, and entered the chalet.

It was just a mistake (10)

"i think i know exactly where she would have taken her .. trust me." the two boys went back to the shalaih to get a car, they tried to get her asap gabl la shay thani y9eer .. who knows? reem may be hiding plenty of things to do .. ensana 78eera. 

 "Rakan ent ga3d itsog tadri wain ray7 ?  wla ga3d itsog 3aba6 ?"- 3bdalah said curiously, but rakan had to reply .. mo 3arf ydl el6reej mn kthr ma ehwa midodh! the last time he remembers going to it was months ago, gabl la yg6a3 3an reem bfatra. kan 5ayf tkon hal 78eera msawytlha shay! kan yfaker .. "6aya7t'ha bmoshkla w ehya malha thanb! da5alt'ha eb mtaha wyay." but 3bdallah kept on interrupting his thoughts with his irritating statements.

"akeed mo 3arf 9a7?? bs t3arf tda5l elnas bmshakl w t3and w tkaber rask ma3ni atwa8a3 gaylk alf mara deerbalk"! "3bdalla tikfa KIL5RAK!!! kafi ely feeeni! 3arf wla 3arf bs 5alni athakar el6reej la twatrni akthar." "Lo y9eer feeha shay ya rakan amout wla a7lilk." -he stated. 

Rakan ignored his last words and drove off trying to re-create some last images he had of that place, the roads, the signals some how were familiar.. he tried to focus on one thing which was getting ghala back.

But there was this one thought that never left his mind; which were all the attempts of letting his filthy past away some how never succeed, "كل شي حولي يذكرني بشي"

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after what seemed like a 30 minute drive they hopelessly parked the car on the left side of the road..

Rakan, dragging his hair to the back started cursing himself. "mo gader athakar"-he said, 3bdallah gave him the what do you mean you dont remember look?? "wallah mani gader athakar 9arli ash'her ash'er mo ray7 hal mokan, mn youmha w ana mo yay wallah akrah 7yaty lma athakr bs magdar ansa bs gam a7awel 3shan.. 3shan.. 3shanha"-he said heavily.. 3bdallah understood nothing, kalemat rakan sounded like puzzles that needed to be sorted out which he didnt have time for.. "I- I care about her maybe as much as you do w akthar 3bdallah w 5ayef ykon 9aylrha shay. A5af tkon darat 3an elma'6i w ely fat w matsam7ni" 

"tsam7k? tsam7k 3la swad wayhek wla 3la ely tsabiblha eya wla mn zod ghlak 3ndha? ana kan le shar6 wa7d bs, w shar6i elw7eed enk matgrb 9ob ghala bs rakan, rakan en magrab 9ob bnt maykon esma rakan"-3bdallah said with a cold heart

Rakan drove away without replying because he didnt have the words nor the strength to reply back to all thats been said since its all true. Right now what was in his heart was still gleaming, still nourishing still looking to solutions to mysteries. Still worrying about ghala. 

he drove away in a pathway that he believed might be leading to the place of reem's. 

And when he finally got to that same place, the place of months ago.. he smiled releifly "Enzl.."

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*Ghala's pov*

i woke up from that horrible headache, i was just there .. laying on the ground like a mummy ..

reem ya dasha ga6a 3lay klam .. ya 6al3a rafsatni w zayda mn 3wari .. im tired of sitting here .. im tired of laying here in pain crying!

i want my cousins! i want my sisters! i want sara, lamar and ghzoool! i need them right now! im scared! im sooo scared! i dont want to understand what's going on or why all this is happening to me i just. want. to. go. home.

i want reem to come and tell me what does she want from me and ill be ready to exactly what she wants, i promise. and If it's about the time i called her, talking to her about rakan; i swear theres nothing going on between me and him, after all i just wanted to help.

how can such a girl act so rough? ba3ad anna allah yhday maglofa wayed..

i saw the door on the corner slowley opening and i thought that its reem, with a chance of me talking to her but it was just one of the boys that were with her..

my hearts beats exelerated, and i looked at him with questioning eyes "lat5afeen im not here to hurt you .. bs glt ymkn 36shana fa i brought you water"-he said politely, i felt like giggling "isn't that too thoughtful for kidnappers to do?"-i said, he just flashed me a smile.

"Not to sound stupid but can i ask you for a favor?"-i asked, the boy was too shy. He looked very silent, too clueless and uncontrolled too.  "if your gonna ask me to help you run away, wallah lo beedi chan mn 3youni bs dont, if your gonna ask for more water mani gayl la2"-he said, as if he read my mind. "umm, No, i just want to ask you, did i do something wrong?" "blnisba for a girl that's been taken away by 2 giant guys, beaten by reem and accused and you still manage to laugh and giggle as if you've done nothing wrong w '6meerch moo em2nbch? you dont seem like you've done anything." "mshkoor"- i said with a smile. "But for now, reem is upset about something w enshallah ra7 tahdi w tshouf ena you have nothing to with it"

"sina 3la ma tsharbha may enta ba3ad! yalla 5al9ni!"- she yelled making her way into the room, The guy took the glass and winked, getting ready to say as she ordered .. she treated him like a dog no offense but that's what she did. I smiled back to him .. "sh3ndch ti'67keen entay ?  ma shiba3tay 5of?" "7raam ?" and as if god wanted to get me rid of what she had to say next, the bell rang.And the look in reems face was pricless.

She had no idea what she wanted to except yell for some to go and answer it. "If you talk i swear im  gonna kill you"- She demanded. And within a split second i heard 2 familiar voices, 3bdallah and rakan. 

"REEEEEEEEM!"-he shouted, i looked at reem who just stared at the ground.. game over. I heard doors being open and shutt, cries of my name everywhere but i just sat on my legs and looked at reem who was hopelessly staring at the ground with sparkling eyes.. "reem?"- i mumbled, wanting to ask her if she was okay, but instead she raised her head with her eyes nearly popping out of her nose, and her hand in slapping position. "no.."- i whispered.

"E7TRMAY NAFSICH 3AD"-He said grabbing her by her hand .. this was by far the most aggresive part ive been through in my life. i hid my face in my sweater and breathed heavily, until a voice caught my attention

i heard a huge slap! did he slap her? sh9ayer?, 3bdallah who came into the room with questioning eyes was confused to, i got up and ran to his side "Im glad you came wallah jad"- i spoke with teary eyes, "Are you alright? t3alay t3alay"-he side hugged me

"Kila minik, i planned on doing nothing to you, maknt abi arja3 athl nafsi w a7awel eni akon shay b7yatk when i know that i no longer have my place in it. But she, she came in and became everything to you eb mas2lat cham youm. en8hart, shloun?" "Cause she's just not like you. and you can never be anything like her.. two moons never shine in the same sky. And your not the moon in mine"

"It's not over *sniff* believe me it isnt"

Describing the moment as joyfull? lucky? a dream? a blessing? and also shocking? are all understatements. Nothing could ever describe the amount of happiness i was in. Nor the confusment i was while rakan was talking to her, but who cares? who cares on finding out why all this happened? who cares about knowing what rakan meant when its finally over now.. 

i get to head back to my second home now. The shalaih..

It was just a mistake (9)

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The only thing i felt were the tears gleaming on my cheeks .. and the pain i felt on my back .. i was feared, and terribly scared .. is this a joke? i cried to myself. Cuz if it is i swear its a bad one .. im scared to death and the only thing i want is to go back home.

i sat in the corner of a dark room, my hands tied to my back .. not seeing a thing, unable to make a sound! i felt like shouting "lamar,ghezlan,sara! is that you? games over i dont like it .." but it wasent a game once i finally saw light .. a door opened and a girl came in, standing tall, her scent was so strong. God how much perfume does this women wear? she came closer and closer walking towards me and with every step she took i felt my heart sinking down to my stomach.

i closed my eyes tightly, causing some tears to escape my hazel eyes. i heard the eco of my heart beating like a hammer within my rib cage .. i started sweating from fear.. "bismillah, whats going on?"-i silently whispered to myself .. whats all this why am i in a dark room and in such an abusing situation??.. and i suddenly felt the girl standing infront of me, i sensed the theme still closing my eyes afraid to even blink. somebody please help me.

"scared? arent you?!"-a familiar voice spoke.

wait a second, ghala? the voice! i heard it! i opened my eyes and took a glimpse .. i saw this tall white red headed girl with dimples that sure seemed to be fake to me standing right infront of me .. alone

i got frightened, like really really scared .. whats going on? someone please tell me! i never harmed anyone .. ma swait shay .. the last time i got into a fight with a girl was when i was like 15? shtabi hathi!and what does she want from me?

"Wh.. who are youu?"-my weak voice spoke ..

i tried to adjust myself .. i moved my body that was scratched against the floor .. it pained .. it seemed bruised! kan 7ail y3awrni.

i sat there for second looking at my body until she held me face and lifted it up forcefully, i looked deeply into her big black eyes with my watery ones ..

"wow.. you sure are a beauty as they said you were"-she spoke in a devilish tone. "W.. whhat are you talking about" "i know you have nothing to do with this babe, bs i just hate being played with" i looked at her confused, just wanting to know whats happening bdon laf w dwran .. 3balha ana fahma elsalfa when im actually unaware about a thing thats happening. But i didnt speak .. i let the fear in my eyes, and the tears that were dripping from my chin, and my shivery breaths explain everything. "im reem ghala, REEM! .. tisharafna?"

i really felt like passing out .. tmnait elar'6 tinshag w tibla3ny .. bs why?  "wwhy are you doing this to me? reem shsalfa" "Your little love bird ma galch shay? or did he just fake everything out like he usually does"-she laughs sarcastically .. yet bitchy. my love bird? who does she mean rakan? "I dont have a love bird. rakan? he's just a family friend"-i replied. she sat on the floor right next to me laughing, is she drunk or something? w ana bs ashhag, ya ar'6 ebla3i ma 3layki .. i cried to myself .. ta3abt. i want to go home! elzibda shno*sniff* ??

"you changed him, stole his mind, gained his love without even trying! you just got that in a blink of an eye, but me? i stayed all my life trying to be everything in his. And when i finally was half way done. You just tared everything apart. In just a split second. why ghala?" she just made me cry even more .. and ache "reem wallah madri shta89deen .. i swear to god i have no idea what your even talking about*sniff*" i just spoke the awful truth. "la tchathbeen! i hate being lied straight to my face! didnt you steal him away? didnt you just take his heart away in a blink of an eye! 5thaiteeh mn ely 7bona .. mn eli awla feeh mnch! ymkn makan y7bni .. ymkn i meant nothing to him .. bs he meant the world bli feeh 7agi."

that just broke me down .. "a7lflch bshno theirs nothing between me and him reem he's all yours bs 5leeeni aro7 what your doing is just a wrong way to deal with situations w kila misunderstanding!" "no no *laughs* die her a7sanlch .. live apart from each other 5al y7s b3thabi shway" "reem what are you talking about please you got it all wrong just listen to me o you'll be pleased" "ohh how innocent.. your too charming"- she laughed with a devilish tone. and all i got next was a slap, and a long lasting nap after it ..

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things at the chalet were just so messed up .. it was late at night, 3bdalllah tried calling ghala but there was just no response .. so they headed out to look for her. hoping that nothing bad happened. 3bdallah was beyond feared, just the thought of something might happened to her made his eyes water. His heart for her contained a big mystery .. and rakan on the other hand .. he was willing on giving up his whole life, just for her.

Its just a pain having two hearts fall for one all at the same time.

after a long walk 3bdalla foun and ipod on the ground .. he bent down and grabbed it, but his anger made him lift it near rakans face tighting his grip on his t-shirt .. "ANAAAAA SHGLTLK ????????? MO GLTLK HATHI 78EERA !!!!!!!!!!"-he said furiously .. the fear he had made him over react, it drove him crazy .. "ENTA 7MAAAAAR! FAHEM SHNO 7MAAAAAR! TSAWI ELY BRASK W TWAR6 ELY 7WALEK! WAIN NILGAHA EL7EEEN ? GOLE WAIN! ALLAH Y3LAM SHMSWYA FEEEHA HAL SOSA! ALLAH Y3LAM BS! LO MO 3NADK HATHA CHAN A7NA B5ER EL7EEEN! BS LA WAIN! MA TRTA7 ELA ETHA WARA6T OMAT MO7AMAD WYAK ENTA!" "ENTA BKEFK TFASER! BKEFK FEEHA SHAY! TILGAHA BARA 3AL BA7AR EL7EEN! WAIN BTKON YA3NI ??"-hope is all rakan had, he know what he did was the biggest mistake ever. he harmed her, the girl he cared about. Instead of protecting her and gaining her heart, he harmed her and knew that its impossible to even imagine himself with her from now on. "es2al nafsk yal dbeer yal fheem! es2al nafsk wenhi! LIBNYA MO MWJODA! IPODHA MG6O6 3AL SHAR3! MG6O6 W YMA HAL FO6A RAKAN!"

he pointed at a towel that was right there on the ground .. rakan held it, and sniffed it. it smelled .. it smelled like ghala .. but it also smelled like .. gas. NO -he thought! this just cant be happening. Kidnapping her??

"ee rakan .. ee latin9dm .. SHE TOOK HER!"

It was just a mistake (8)

i untucked myself from bed, wore my shorts, shirt, converse and headed downstairs carefully trying my best not to make a sound and when i finally reached the the door i got out and sat on the shore ..

ahh the weather, the breezes! the smell of the ocean .. I'm shivering! 

i plugged my earphones into my ears and played, 3abdo .. kel ma nasnas

i was so into the song! until "Shtsaween bro7ch hal 7aza"?

his voice interrupted my thoughts ..

i turned to the side and saw his tall figure standing .. ohh shit i thought, 3sa ma ygoul 7ag a7ad 6al3a hal 7za?

who cares .. nothings gonna happen! ill just make an excuse and tell 3bdallah i needed this time outside ..

"Abi ag3ad bara shway" "el7een? laish shayfa elsa3a cham shloun t6l3een bro7ch  w elkil naym?, yalla riday da5l w mara thanya lay b'3aitay t6l3een golay 7ag a7ad" "Mani da5la bag3ad you go sleep a9lan shtabi!" i swear to god i can punch her in the face, such a brat-rakan thought .. ehda ehda everythings gonna be fine! just breath in and out .. you dont want to make her hate you zyada .. "5la9 ana bag3ad wyach" way shyabi?? okay .. fine! i promised 3bdallah not to go out alone, 5al a5leeh yg3ad wyay bs as long as ma yrfa3 tha86i ..

But the weird part of this whole "faj2a being protective thing" is that for 3 days now, 3 days after today, everytime i went out alone,  bkl laila anzl feeha Its 3bdallah or rakan that have to be with me with every time im out at night .. shsalfa-i thought? .. makanw y5loni anzl bro7i lo shno .. ma9arat!

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Ghala was surprised yet confused of the way rakan and 3bdalla were acting, why are they suddenly protective? w ila ytsasron mn ta7at lay ta7at .. w their always fighting! w whats up with the threat messages??? ugghh shsalfa!

 She had no idea on what was waiting for her. What was planed after the first day she talked to reem and after the first phone call. She had no idea that rakan dumped reem and had said that she (ghala) was his new,first and last, true love. She had no idea what was meant to be the cause of this breakup

the only thing she knew was that she needed to be careful the upcoming days .. why she asked? nobody answered .. not 3bdallah nor rakan had the guts to tell her that she was in danger because reem loved rakan so freaking much, and was shocked by the fact that rakan no longer loved her because she was the reason. 3bdallah felt so uncomfortable hiding the truth, but he knew it would break his heart seeing her reaction when he would tell her the true story.

So they just stood silent, and tried to protect her from whatever reem was planning on doing .. 

"way 5la9 i want to walk alone mabi a7ad!"-ghala said madly "mit25ra elsa3a ya ghala, shloun titmshain bro7ch? khla9 3ad"- he said tired of her stubbornness, trying not to shout and scare her, trying so hard to secretly gain her heart, rakan said in heavy tired and scared tone. he was afraid of letting her go out alone, regretting the problem he started .. this was all happening because of him. Reem is nothing but a hard playing tough girl who loved rakan all her life, he treated her like garbage at times but she was the first person he'd go to when he felt down, she was the first one by his side the first one he needed. But now ghala came and changed all that, which drove her nuts ..

"Fe bashar y6l3on yamshon elsa3a 12 blail?", ghala giggled "Eeeh ana, w entaw madri shsalftkom hal ayam" "ghala 5la9 3afya lo mara la t3andeeen!" "Im 17 .. in not a kid anymore, i can manage to walk alone at times" at the same moment rakans phone rang .. and he went to pick it up "Fine bs la t6awleen w 5alch greeba" "fine dad" she laughed walking away.

ghala plugged her earphones and started jogging her way to smell some fresh air .. 

she closed her eyes and it seemed as she was in another world

she cleared her mind, and wanted nothing but to run for a full hour! get back to the shlaih, shower, and lay on bed readinf her fav blogs until she's fall asleep again

she was a simple girl .. so white hearted you'd be shocked ..

she wanted nothing but for herself and other people to live in peace .. she wished for her whole life to be spent with her un-replaceable cousins, and the most stupid family friendss! 

she missed her parents alot .. but luckily i get to see them every once in a while, unlike some other orfen children she thought.

"aah i need to call 3bdalla, eljaw naar!"-she spoke to herself ..

1 un-read message:

out alone arent you?

ghala started to freak out the moment she read the message ..

she looked left and right, left then right over and over again ..

wtf? she started running back to her shalaih as fast as she could! what a weird stalker .. mno??, she stopped for a second to catch her breath .. ohh the is nonsense!-she thought

she started breathing a breathing and waited for her heart beats to come back to normal .. ta3abt.

and from afar came a car .. as if they were coming right towards her wanting to crush her into a million pieces, ghala just stood there and stared at the cars light that got brighter and brighter by the second ..

and when the car stopped 2 came out running, and the last thing she knew. She was up contiguous ..

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*slap*

It was just a mistake (7)

It was those 3 days after when ghala barley forgot about the subject ..

well that wass her, lma shay yash'3l balha, its so hard forgetting about it and letting go

but she kind of did, she decided to not think about it for a while, it useless after all ..

but one strange thing is that she was getting threat messages from a unknown number .. she kind of knew it was reem. Thats why she didnt bother telling anyone or answering "What is she going to do after all"?-ghala thought ..

a moment later ghala's phone buzzed. one un-read message ..

she opened it to read "lailaa, mn '3air maw3d"

"What the hell is wrong with this retard"- ghala whispered to herself, they were all out in the blue enjoying their time "Whats wrong ghlaiw"-3bdallah called from afar as he was driving the boat, ghala laughed instantly "3bdallah shaklk mo bs ma9ri"-she said as she got up and headed towards him "3dal entay, 5fay 3laina bltanning oil wallah bti9b'3een elshams mihi 6ayra, shfa7a shfa7a?"-he said laughing so hard.p

"Way a'67ak ya3ni? kaifi enshalla a9eer f7ama mani rada 3lek!", ghala went and laid on the deck once again, she tried so hard not to laugh! 78eer hal 3bdallah "Enzain 76ay sun protection jad mo ga3d at'3shmar la ta7rgch elshams w t9ereen 6oma6a" he laughed again, "Just ignore ghala just ignore"-she whispered to herself, about 5 minutes maraw w 3bdallah was saying stupid things and laughing all by himself! he looked stupid! i mean so stupid! everyone was swimming, except ghala who was tanning and 3bdallah that was driving .. ghala did nothing but hide her laugh ..

but it wasent a long time until they came back ..

"MALAT 3LEK NA9ER MAY'6A7K MAY'6A7K"- She got on the boat coughing! "nashaftay may elba7ar kila allah yhdach! ako wa7da kobrch lal7en mat3rf titsaba7?" i just let my laugh out! what?? sara mat3rf titsaba7?? since when she used to swim since her dippers! i cant believe this, today just cant get any more stupid .. it was the feeling lma everybodys laughing for no reason, its like every word that comes out makes us laugh .. lamar brought her a glass of water and made her drink it .. yousef and ghezlan were out of sight .. i think they were still swimming

i just layed on by back and laughed all the time, until we went back .. good thing rakan wasent with us .. i haven't had this much fun in a long time!

*****

After we came back i was sun kissed .. or actually sun bruised! you cant imagine how much i ran after 3bdallah cursing him trying to throw him with every metal thing or klenx box i saw in front of me, 3aina wa7da bwa7da! i took a shower and scrubbed my back, shoulders, and face with mebo (you should really try it if you get a sun burn nar)

"t3alay t3alay 5anshouf shimbad3a"-he said sitting behind me i just closed my eyes really tightly, it was painful! knt abi agoum a6ga one last time because it was my chance since he was really close, bs i felt exhausted .. "OLA *laughs* gltlch ana gltlch 76ay protection! hach miskay"- he said releasing his last laughes i guess .. he handed  me the cream and applied some on my shoulders "your gonna regret this you know" "Adri thats why im laughing now!"- he said still laughing!

"Elslamo 3laikom", gosh that voice irritates me! everyone replied, except 3bdalla .. he kept on applying the cream

"Shfeeha ghala?shfeeh '6hrha??" "mafeeh shay bs m7trga mn elshams mn 6al3at elyoum"-3bdalla said in a cold tone, " shfeech ghala?" sh9ayer? "What 3bdallah said, just a burn"-i said not bothering to lift my head up, i just shuffled through my iPhone .. 

and an unexpected shout came out of his mouth "Tara wallah elyoum maly 5lg wla a7ad! KILISH!! la tma95onha 3la rasi mali 5lg!!" "Matshouf shar ro7 dark"-3bdallah spoke, he clunched his fist .. his face turned red! all he did was turn around and head back to where he came from ..

"A3otho bila! mno mgawm shya6eena hatha??"-ghezlan said with wide eyes .. i was too surprised, but i laughed! kilhom kanaw m9a6leen w y5zon nafs elmokan ely 6ala3 mina .. GOD that was furious. 

i sat there for minutes until all of them realized how weird it was and stared laughing once again with me! y5ar3 jad! i realized that 3bdallah didn't laugh, he finished and just sat there punching his fingers in his phone ..

"Whats wrong"-i asked. "Mafeeni shay"-he said in a low tone, "look at you, i know you tara gouli whats wrong? is there something going on? ill help you i just hate seeing you like this" "he stared at me for a while and just smiled ..   "Shfeek haw min 9iji!" "mafeeni shay, enshallah"- he smiled .. "ana ray7 eldewaniya w i think ba7der w bacher enshalla bard, matwa8a3 i can make it tonight" "its okay ill sit alone for a day" "La! lat6l3een bro7ch blail! e5thay ay a7ad wyach"-he said in a shocked tone "Just plz, lat6l3een elyoum i promise ill come tomorrow w ng3ad lay elfayer!" i had no clue why .. maybe because of all the crimes that are happening now days? i just didn't bother asking .. "5la9 enshalah" 

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and i woke up at night .. around 11;42 .. i slept early elyoum .. kilman ra7 ynam mn 3igob elba7ar actually; we were just too exhausted. Bs i felt so alone, mafeeni elnom! i want to do something ..

i know i promised 3bdallah I'm not going anywhere alone tonight! bs mafe a7ad .. elkil naym w elhawa bard elyoum ma yta6awaf!

il go alone just this time .. bs mara7 aba3id. 

i untucked myself from bed, wore my shorts, shirt, converse and headed downstairs carefully trying my best not to make a sound and when i finally reached the the door i got out and sat on the shore ..

ahh the weather, the breezes! the smell of the ocean .. I'm shivering! 

i plugged my earphones into my ears and played, 3abdo .. kel ma nasnas

i was so into the song! until "Shtsaween bro7ch hal 7aza"?

It was just a mistake (6)

i knew it, there i saw lamar, ghezlan and sara sitting on my bed with the camera in between there hands .. i had to know better then leave them alone with it, bs shsawi? it not like i can take it into the bathroom with me!

uggh lgafat'hm sa3at tithba7! -ghala thought, shbsawi el7een?? mabi agoulhom sh9ayer mabeehom ytda5lon blsalfa w ohma malhom sh'3l, i dont want them to over think or bother themselves!

as soon as the girls saw ghala they placed the camera back on the bed and looked at her with questioning eyes, ghala was pissed yet wanted to explain everything at the same time ..

She went and got dressed, not a beep did she hear from them as she was changing in the closet room .. when she got out again, she couldent resist such silence and awkwardness! she couldent resist not poring everything out to them! so she just did, she told them everything "Yes Sara, im sorry to tell you naser's past was actually like that, ghezlan?" she spoke these words but all sara did was stay silent.

But she did mention that this is their "past" and that people shouldent be judged by it, things happen with or without a reason, 3an 8a9d wla bl'3ala6! whats meant to be will always find its way ..

that kind of made them chill a bit, she felt their discomfort with the past of the ones they loved, bs shno beedha? a9araw yshofon what was in the camera w had the same reaction as hers.

She felt sorry for them .. they were shocked by something they didnt know ..

well knew bs ma tw83aw lay hal daraja!

"Is it that everytime i actually like someone 7a'6i 5ays?"-Sara said lost in her thoughts "Nope, latgoleen chithi! its just that ohma kanaw chithi, their past chithi, t3wdaw 3leh! malhom thanb" "Shya'6mnli ena their still not that way??"

Sara had a crush on na9er mn youm w e7na 9'3ar .. even when we were no longer notified by their presence .. she still stalked him .. he always had that big impact on her, she cared 3leh bzyada..

Just knowing about such a fact makes people get upset, knowing that peoples lives are played with at some point, by the ones you love.. disturbs. They may not be playing with you which questions your discomfort, but still.. their playing on those who love them, and might actually not know their being played with.

6moo7 ghala byoum mn layam tanhi w twagf w t76 7ad lay hal sha'3la el5aysa, lana malha ela 6a3am el7sn aw elen5thal. w shofat elnas b7ala 7zeena kanat wayed ta7znha ehya ba3ad, swa2an 3rfat;hom wla la2, 6oul 3umrha matabi elnaqs tin'6ar.

w 3la golat 3bdallah, rakan had kil elbnat ely kanaw b7yata w a6la8 9ra7 fr9at 7znhom t'6ee3, except for reem. And you know what? if he never wanted reem to be happy mn bain kil ely ra7aw b7yata, w lail7eena m9amim y5arb 7yata, i wont allow him- such a innocent, white heart spoke bkil jihil, w 8ilat 5ibra.
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"Aloo reem?" "*laughs with the person next to her* hla, mno m3ay?" "umm, ana, ana ghala chan t3rfeeni i called a couple of days ago to talk to you" but all i heard next was 6oo6 6oo6 6oo6 ..

i was there standing on the shore outside the chalet, shoe less, walking on the sand feeling the salty water tickling my feet ..

wtf? that was rude .. i decided to call again, ymkn eng6a3 el5a6 i said ..

yes you guessed right, ghala escaped the girls and headed down stairs .. thats what she did everyday by 10pm! tg3ad jdam el7mar, she deeplly thinks about life. listens to music .. it was her way of chilling ..

w she decided to call reem by that time. Since she never stopped thinking about the subject ..

"NA3AM, what do you want??? sdaita bwayhch fhmay mabi aklmch! ela t'heeneen nafsch again 7aba asida mara thanyaa?? wa6yaa!"

OUCH! what was that for?? "wait wait, why the hell are you talking to me like this? hatha yzay im calling 3shan asa3dch! 5ayfa 3laich?" "haha *she lauhgs* mno ysa3dni? ghala bint flan lflani? '67kteeni! 3igob ma your ruined klshay? ro7ay motay ana agoul w bthari lal7een ma rdaita lakn bynrad 9dgeeni!" is this girl sick or what??- i thought "What? what do you mean? what did i ever do too you shloun t3rfeeni a9lan!" "Just say hi to rakan, ohh sorry, i forget he's coming over tonight! you jealous? toodles *blows a kiss*"

WHAT?? IS THIS WOMAN SICK OR WHAT??-Ghala shouted! she screamed her head out and threw her phone hardly on the sand!

i cant believe this?? i try to help her w t6la3 t3arfni! 6awaft, i called again gamat tsbni w tkalmni bhal eslob?? why? who does she think she is!! elsharha 3lay ana walla! ana l7mara el'3bya!-Ghala mumbled out loud w ehya mo 7asa bnafs'ha

"I warned you about this didnt i?" a voice behind her said, she turned around and found 3bdallah, "3bdallah fuck off seriously maly 5lg", ghala sat down on the shore, tucked in her legs and hugged them w sanidat ras'ha .. 3bdallah sat right behind her ..

"3aneeda! 6oul 3umrch" "I wanted to help, thats all"-She said in a calm shaky voice .. "Help ma7ad galch la2, just sometimes when i tell you not to do something 6ee3eeni! theres a reason behind it" ghala got up rushed and sat infront of him "What reeason? sh9ayer? plz a7ad yfahmni! im lost lo tgolonli sh9ayer i wouldent be doing what am i doing now! i wouldent try to find out my self and fall in problems!" "Its not a good time to talk about this, i will tell you one day kilshay! i promise, bs mo el7een" "Mafe mjal tgouli 7ta law 7nait 9a7?"-ghala said with a puupy face, 3bdallah laughed ..  "Kilish!" "And dont give me that puppy face ma yhon 3lay, to adorable to resist! w latz3leen 3lay, enshalla wla t7ateen 36eeni cham youm bs w ana agoulch klshay! wa3ad" ghala side hugged him, "your the best"

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"3bdallah 7yate w ana 7ur feeha, malk sh'3l bli asweeh la tida5al!" "Mashi, bs mara7 asam7k etha 9ar shay"

It was just a mistake (5)

Ghala: yaya a5th camerat 3bdallah, 3an ethnk

she grabbed the camera and got up to leave relieved!

ashwa-she thought, that was close!

Rakan: next time knock the door atleast 9arga3teeni ive never had a girl pop into my room after taking a shower, its sweet i know but no no.
Ghala: your too full of pride, ana lo 3bdallah mo m6arshni chan a9lan ma yait wla sheda5lni '3orftk g6ee3a!
Rakan: 7a9ilch entay! -he liked to tease..
Ghala: chub bs chub ana agoul yalla bye baro7!

ghala opened the door to head out, but "Ghala?"-rakan called "5air??"-she replied in her uptighted voice, he stood quite for a second without saying a word. He wanted to say something, but it like he suddenly forgot what it was .."nervermind bs skray elbab wrach a9lan im so dumb i called you"- rakan said, w ghala felt guilty! he wanted to say something but ghala blew it away, and she really had the curiosity in wanting to know what it was.

Minutes of awkward silence made her make her way through the door, only finding 3bdallah in her way, "What are you doing with it??!" ghala was so nervous and had no idea what to say! enriba6 elsanha. "36eeny eyaha"-He tried to grab it roughly! "Ghala ouch chill shama5tni! tara y3awr shfeek! i just borrowed it mafeeha shay" she opened the camera but this time he pulled away and actually got it .. "3bdalla tista3b6? give it back!!" she tried taking it back bs he heldd it behind him "lgaftch hathi mara7 twa9lich 7ag shay ghala believe me! why are you searching behind him? you know who he is 5la9 mala da3i t6e7een bmshakl" i know who he is lil2saf w i just wish he wasent anything like this .. i really want him to be like you! to stop doing what he's doing .. atleast mo 3shana, but the other girls out there .. the other girls he's ruining, he's leaving heartbroken! "ay mshakl 3bdallah believe me you dont know what im trying to do! mskeena reem! mskeena!" "Ghala reem wa7da 78eera w rabi 78eera entay shfeech?? kabray 3aglch w 5ala9na 3ad; libnya mat3arfch w entay ray77a btklmeenha shhal ligafa?" and suddenly ghala remembered that reem called her name out .. she wondered how?? how did she even know her voice! "36ny elcamera 3bdallah 5la9, malk sh'3l tara your starting to get me me angry" "angry 3la shno w im just doing the best for you 3shan mabeech tin'6rain" "enta ensan matdri shga3d it5arbi6! 36nyaha 3bdallah im SO serious bs malk sh'3l!" and he gave it to her forcefully, fog eradta, makan yabi but he didn't even want to get her angry 3leh .. 3bdallah really cared about ghala, he knew what was going on through her mind, he knew her curiosity btwadrha w she'd come up broken w sad ba3dain .. he knew what rakan is starting to do to her .. he just didn't want that to happen! atleast not to ghala. Bs makan yabeeha tikraha .. although he's starting to feel that she is; her feelings are slowly drifting away .. 

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& after a couple of days ..

i realized the reason behind 3bdallah not letting me look at whats inside ..

So that's why 3bdallah never wanted me to take the camera? because of these photos? wallah yraitni sam3a klama ..-ghala sat all alone in their room thinking to herself ..

she sat there for days and days, scanning through the pictures everytime she had the chance too! w bkl mara kanat tin9dm,

over  5 thousand pictures or so, w wla 9ora shaft'a kanat san3a .. la mn na9er, wla yousef, w blthat rakan!! i felt that in this moment, all of them were so freaking cheap. i mean literary all these days iv been TRYING to deal with them, ive been trying not to be disgusted .. ely 9abrni ena all these photos were old, they were to young! but still what the camera contained was beyond the word "7aram", was beyond shocking for boys like them, beyond what i expected 7tan .. -ghala felt.

minutes later the girls came in, ghala closed the camera and kept it on the table beside her bed

"Entay sh3ndch hal ayam camerat mno hathi"-Sara said "Camerat rfejti"-i said depressed, i wish it was, atleast mara7 ykon feeha kil hatha. "allaaaah bashouf"-ghezlan said grabbing it, but i grabbed it right away!
"DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! IM SERIOUS!" 

i got up so mad, looking at their clearly astonished face from my reaction, and headed to the bathroom to take a shower "La tit3abthon, please"

i got a refreshing shower, i thought about this generation, how its okay to just talk to boys, even as friends. Its okay to date, hangout, have late phone calls and everything! Look at us before, look at Kuwait 30 years before this point, how was it? NOTHING from this ever existed. Kanat elnas 3indha 6moo7 bl7yat, like when we were kids, you studied all week, you prayed the second your parents asked you to, you studied for every test and quiz, you obyed kil 6lab your parents asked you for! just to sleep at your cousins house at the end of the week, or just to go out with your friends until 10pm without your parents calling every second asking you when will you be back, wla ygolonlkom ta2a5ar elwagt ridaw. As simple as that, as simple as your goals were, you tried your best to accomplish them. Now? people dont even know what do they want to be when the grow up. They want nothing but boys boys and boys. And by this i dont mean every single girl out there, i mean most of the girls ..

you ask them where do you wanna hangout on the weekend? they reply with "360" for example .. laish? tabon nit3sha? endsh cinema? nit'3da? la walla bs nabi nro7 ngz .. enshouf 9byan kna n3arfhom, enshouf flan w rab3a .. 

is that really all you wana do know? is that the only thing left? i know for a fact that MANY people do that. 

things changed alot .. i know it may be fun, it may be entertaining to some people .. but its just too reckless! you never know the person your talking too. The person you want to meet! Many fake who they are, many may make you feel that there the most people you can trust in this world, w bla5eer tin9dmon.. you wish you never trusted them, or even spent a single second in their lives

life changed, lots of people are fake, and trusting is always hard.

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after taking a shower i got out,  soaking wet .. my hair dripping water, i got goosebumps from the cold temperature of the room .. 

"ma a9adg, they had a past?" "i know this girl! kanat b9afi last year! my god knt adri she had these things! how low .."

It was just a mistake (4)

*Ghala's point of view*

   You know how they say that sometimes you may not even know yourself? that sometimes you do stuff, feel stuff, or act in a way that you dont even know the reason behind? that you become so mixed up that you may not even know whats going on with you? your speechless, emotionless,and undefinable all at the same time .. you feel that life is so mixed up that you just want to take a break .. when your all mixed up and feeling miserable ..
              thats whats happening with me right now .. right this second.
"why did you close the line? chan kamalt 3adi solf wyaha"-i said, couldent be even more pissed off and miserable then i already am after knowing that he still talks to his stupid girls!
yes im angry. I totally am madri shfeeni. Well maybe cuz the past few days he's been ignoring me, or because he never finshes playing games around innocent, yet stupid girls that give him a chance to ..

i dont know why bs i was bothered mn hal shay .. well sorry i was so rude when talking to him! its not my fault kil ma kalamta narfazni .. 7ta w ana a7awl a9eer 6ayba wyah he ruins everything up. He changes the fact that i actually wanted to "a6ay7 el7a6ab" between us.

"la mabe asolf wyaha, a9lan me and this girl? we were done mn zman bs dgait 7ab ashoufha elyoum"-he said giggling "aham shay? what a jerk!! how can you do that to girls a9lan? 7aram!!"- i said pissed off .. shwaya w akfa5a bili beedi. "i know, i really am, bs atleast im a hot jerk"-he said pushing his hair to the back and winking ..
   
 he said that and just went inside .. y8th. his full of pride self makes me want to burn him into ashes, w 3la ely gala i felt like doing something that would make him regret saying that sentence to me.

And that reem girl. wallah maskeena, she's been totally mesmerized not knowing that rakan alflani is the biggest player on earth. w 3la youm she gonna be dumped like the others, heart broken and he's not even gonna care.
 i shock my head mn kil hal afkar and just went inside and sat with the girls and 3bdallah ..

*****

They all sat together, 3bdallah made her feel quit better with the talks they had and the jokes he told her .. he was such a great person to be around with. Ghala was really thankful! she couldent find a better friend ..

    He made her laugh when she felt down, was there for her when she needed someone by her side. he held her when she was about to fall and just made everything a hundred times better, w she really needed it after what just happened.

"I dont get why you two are stilll friends .. ya5i 3bdallah loves you 5ala9 kilina daraina!"-stupid sara mumbled " Malch sh'3l sara shhal ligafa ely 3laich!"-lamar said making her shutup

me and 3bdallah were playing ps3 over at his chalet, having all the fun we could've had before sara opened her stupid mouth ..

" ee wallah 9aja saro! tara nadri nadri "-ghezlan winked sarcastically .. 3bdalla felt my discomfort "even if i do it wouldent make a difference, me and ghala are friends w baskom la t8thonha "-he said giving me a smack on the shoulder and a smirk .. jad, i love this guy! yfhamni ..

after a couple of minutes i had an idea .. eeh i was sitting with 3bdalllah enjoying my time bs i was stilll thinking of reem .. that poor girl really believed that jerk ..

" i want reem's number " i whispered to 3bdallah .. " What reem?"-he whispered back .. "7beebat rakan! i heard him talk to her elyoum el9b7, mskeena! she dosent know what that jerk is doing to her"

and he suddenly laughed ..

"What's so funny? im serious im gonna talk to her!" "No you wont, believe me .." "Where is he now?"-i spoke seriously "He's taking a shower bdara bs ghala dont even think about it, im not letting you talk to her aw tida5lain bswalf rakan! you have no idea what might happen" "watch me.."-and that was her final sentence before she got up and headed to rakans room..

she ran as fast as she can and locked the door, because 3bdalla was right after her trying to stop her .. Reem was nothing compared to what ghala is thinking she is .. 3bdallah wanted to explain that to ghala, but she was to stubborn to listen.

" Ghala abi agoulch shay bs ba6lay elbab!"-he said for the millionth time! but ghala ignored him .. she was searching everywhere for rakan's phone as fast as she could before he gets out of the shower w titwahag..

"Ahh found it!" "kaifch, just dont come to me later, im sick of you not listening to what i have to say"

ghala didnt focus on what 3bdalla was saying, she was so rushed and mixed up on what to do, she was scared that rakan might get out in any second.

she scrolled down the list .. amazed bli kan da5la. But she stopped for a second when she read "reemti"-disgusting she thought.

she copied the number into her phone and presssed the green button waiting for reem to pick up, and as soon as she did ..

"hey sweety, whats app?" "No, reem sm3eeni rakan isnt good for you, he's a player .. i mean he really is! he wants to see you tonight w a7s ena besawi shay mo zain trust me! all he does ena yl3ab 3al bnat, you deserve way better then him! la t6ee3eena! dont see him today please"-ghala said .. her big white heart just ma 5laha t6aw3 enha tadri sombody was going to be harmed w taskt .. ghala always wanted rakan to stop what he does to those poor girls because thats just not good. ena yl3ab 3la bnat elnas w y5arb som3at'hom? yamli wanasta ya5th ely yabeeh w yamshi? laish bnat elnas li3ba? some are too idiotic to realize that what their doing is wrong .. bs hatha mo m3nata ena yst'3l hal shay w yil3ab 3leha ..

Ghala bl2sas never believed in true love or even love.. she says that there no such thing. That in this generation all both genders want is someone who would make them feel loved, or cared about .. she had so many negatives about love .. so many negatives about relationships.

"la7'6a la7'6a la7'6a .. entay?? entay ghala???" and suddenly the bathroom door opened ..

"Ghala? *laughs* shtsaween ehni?" ghala froze in her thoughts despite reems last sentence.. enriba6 elsanha! kanat ga3da tdawr targee3a 7ag elmaw8f ely ehya feeh ..

shit-she thought, shsawi el7een??

Ghala: umm .. umm..

rakan was standing right infront of her soaking wet and a towel rapped around his waist.. she lowered her head shyly knowing that sneaking into his room when he's taking a shower was really stupid! all she saw while her head was lowered was a camera right infront of her .. and it hit her.

Ghala: yaya a5th elcamera 3bdallah gaal ybeeha, 3an ethnk.

she took the camera and got up to leave relieved!

ashwaa-she thought, that was close!

It was just a mistake (3)

Days passed the girls got kind of close with the them, they hanged out, chatted, and spent most of their time together. Their parents knowing that they did. People around them knowing that these girls and boys grew up together for along time, never minded talking about them. A phone call from their parents clarifying everything .. got them to know each other better, they started to hang out, they started to become one close family .. Ghala enjoyed it, it made her feel happy, safe and secure. Although she never talked to rakan because all he did was piss her off. Instead she spent her time with 3dballah. They spent their late nights on the beach listening too songs most of the times. They both admired that. Ghala loved gazing at the ocean for some reason. She says that its a mood changer. The wind, the smell, everything is just so refreshing. And if you were wondering, ghala's type was mjeed .. 3abdo .. rwaished, rashed, bo baker or famous poets. She says that songs are keys to feelings you sometimes fail to put into words ..

       The boys didnt bother them much as they told their parents when they talked with them on the phone. But who were they kidding? they were a pain in the butt. All they did was prank the girls from time to time but they paid them back!

       As the days went by ghala's hate for rakan did nothing but increase day by day. 3bdallah talked to him akthar mn mara, he says he dosent mean to piss her off aw y'6aygha but ghala never believed that. " why dont you believe me? i care about you!"-rakan once said. " ohh please, you care about me but all you try to do is get me mad? dont you have plenty of other girls you can bug instead of me? " " Not any more, i used to have too many but their nothing, ghala ana asf mo 8a9di a'6aygch aw a8thich, bs if thats what im doing 5la9 i wont even bother talking to you " " couldent ask for a better way to be pleased. "-ghala said stubbornly.

Thats how she treats him, w thats how she did the past couple of days, even though rakans treatment with her has changed for some reason .. Ghala's didnt. Nobody has ever talked to him that way, but ghala did.

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    "You know it was harsh what you said today"-3bdallah said sitting next to ghala on the shore " said to who"-ghala replied not knowing what he meant. "Rakan? the i couldent ask for a better way to be pleased. part, ma tithkrain haw tawich gabl cham sa3a gayltha" ghala laughed .. "embla athakar, bs he deserves it! shno 3bala ygdar y6afrni w askitla? like all his other girls? kilshay ygoulhom ysawona ygolonla tam? no, im just not that kind, ehwa '3al6an" "your just to stubborn mako fayda feech, bs tara he's kind .. a7na min9admeen shloun saktlch w entay msawya kilhatha a9laan"

     and they continued their talk about several things that night. and Ghala found lots of stuff she never knew, Like 3bdallah's mom getting diagnosed by cancer 2 years ago and dying.. pluto not being a galaxy anymore, some hidden painful memories of 3bdallah's past, or even stuff she never knew about him.. w china bhal la7'6a w hal laila w hal ga3da. she know about him bore then his older sister shaikha!, and a point about rakan she never tried to believe "He has really changed you know, you need to start giving him a chance. He'll surprise you trust me"-3bdalla said.

Only rakan got too mad from what ghala said the last time he talked to her, that he never gave her a chance enha  tbarer '3l6at'ha ra'3m mo7awlat'ha el3deeda blayam ely yat, thinking that after what 3bdallah has said, the hate they had needed to settle at some point, after all ymkn ykon 5osh wa7d.

 But it was the opposite as she expected when one evening when ghala was outside fixing her dirt bike .. rakan came by talking on his phone .. but once he saw her whispered " bye reem akalmch ba3dain "

It was just a mistake (2)

  and that woke ghezlan and lamar up instantly! curious of what might of happened, they ran to the window next to where sara was standing to see 5 guys .. the ones ely yn'6rb 3laihom esm "group alflani's".
Ghezlan's face formed a smirk, showing that she noticed something! But lamar was still lost .. she still havent noticed who these boys were .. kanat lal7eenha mgafla w she just got mad that such "children" woke her up bhal 6ree8a!
Lamar: their dead to me.
but sara grabbed her, lamar wanted to go down and teach them a lesson, but sara held her arm explaining to her that she shouldent do that! that these boys are " too too too too too too too too too too hot". w lamar "don't ruin our chance of getting to know them".

   Yes lamar is the protective kind .. the "ma yjooz" kind .. and the "ana omkom w im in charge of you" kind too .. and we're okay with it. She really cares about us since she's the oldest w we trust her .. we trust that everytime she keeps us away from doing something stupid is that because its for our own good.

Sara: do you understand! I found out a couple of days ago that they ere gonna move in and that their our new neighbors mn oboy, he started reminding me of some childhood memories we had with them wlw eni ma thikart shay, w ena nder balna w nit9araf ta9rofat san3a bdon 5bal jdamhom lana our families are really close.. so just ignore them!  bs la tzfeenhom w ta36eenhom mo7a'6rat tfshleena please lamoor 7beebti bs hal mara 3afya!
Lamar: el7een ana 9arat mo7a'6rtay w 5ofi 3laikom yfashel? w ka oboch galch mabi ta9rofat 5bol w tisan3aw laish rasma lay b3eed wyahom?? "GHALO GOMAY SHOFEEHOM BYAJL6ONI" she shouted.

and as always ghala was deep asleep with her headphones on not hearing a thing .. but lamoor went to her and grabbed her from her hair.

Gawimat'ha w she started yapping about how nonsense this is w that this isnt a good start w that they should inform their parents that those who's family shares half the wealth and classes with their own family are such noisy people that moved next to them ..
On the other hand was Sara and Ghezlan who were convincing ghala about how hot they were and how they all 9 of them were close cute childhood friends who they were too foolish to grow old and forget .. and that this is gonna be fun as long as we never fall for them!
Ghala went and took a peek outside w she wished she didnt .. "laykon hathaila ely eb bali?"-ghala said in her sleepy voice. " eeeh eeeh! rakan yousef na9er 3bdallah w a7mad! "-ghezlan replied. "No No way! im not dealing with that jerk again akrahaaa!".

2 months ago ghala, sara and ghezlan were stuck with their rhino in the middle of no where .. the place they went too was extremely dark, w it was sara's idea for sure. Ghala and ghezlan were laughing not knowing what to do while sara tried to figure out what was wrong with the stupid rhino! minutes later 5 boys poped out of now where .. w for sure rakan started to flirt with ghala who didnt even give him a chance to talk .. she made his life miserable bl7achi ely ga6ta 3leh "your nothing but a jerk, you think your hot just because of your gorgeous blue eyes and perfectly built abs and extremley hot tanned face and your a&f fierce on? no mr rakan esma3ni, i hate you, i hate your group w i aint falling for you lilmara elmalyoun! now kaml 6reejk yalla m3a elslama" that's how religious ghala was, no no boy could ever make his way up to her. Mn ely kanat tism3a w tshoufa, kil ely kanat tbeeh enha tanhi kilmat "7ub" bl wjood, cuz she never liked, believed, or was pleased with it. All rakan ever did to ghala, from the  he layed eyes on her kan y6afrha. Which is the moment they met mn youm kanaw 9'3ar. Bs problem is not all of them knew that 13-15 years ago, they used to be inseparable little devils.

Ghala reminded lamar about that embarrassing night .. when she tried to humiliate rakan bs she ended up humiliating herself. She reminded her that that was also the night where they found out that they were close family friends .. alflani's .. the family that shared half the wealth with their family .. hathailha 3yalhom. She told her who those boys were cuz lamar still didnt realize!
Lamar: i cant believe this! bs kbraw! ola shloun chithi t'3yraw??
Me: yeah, 7ta look at 3bdallah .. last time i saw him makan chith!

despite rakan was 3bdallah, elwa7eed blgroup ely ghala t7iba. Well mo t7ba t7ba he was her closest friend mn bainhom .. he always helped her w kan y9adfha eb amakn w ysalm 3leha. 3bdallah had a broad heart w he was too kind between the 5 of them. All they did was talk to a bunch of girls, love them, then dump them. Thats all they did. W thats what ghala hated the most! she hated boys that played on girls! but 3bdallah? he just wasent the same .. he was always 3aks his group of cousins tamaman.

and thats what happend on that day ..